Beginner Help

Today, i’m going to take a step back to the beginning for my newer readers and talk about something that helped me the first year or so in my submission. Many today, find their Dominants online, rather than in person. Mostly, because we are afraid of admitting to ourselves or to the people around us…

Master’s Input

Hello all, From time to time I’ll drop in and add my two cents. However, this blog is primarily maeve’s responsibility so I’ll be intermittent. A little introduction on my part is in order so here goes: I’ve been involved in the lifestyle for over a decade and have switched for almost as long. I…

Submission and What it Really Means

You ever hear someone talk about the BDSM lifestyle and you get this hinky feeling, like OMG are they FREAKY!! So let’s just back up for a minute and go over a few things. First: BDSM. What is it? The term has several definitions, depending on who you speak to depends on what it means….

Depression, Separation, & Coping

It’s been awhile since I’ve written. I’m hoping from the title of this post you can figure out why. Depression is a sneaky devil. It’s not always feeling sad. Sometimes it rears its ugly head in the form of lethargy. For several months I’ve been feeling a loss of desire to do things. At first…

New Year, New Goals

The new year fast approaches, and the world is set about making resolutions that will be quickly forgotten in a matter of weeks. Many purchase gym memberships or home gym equipment in an effort to get into better shape. Alas, they will grow tired of trying to change, and the equipment will become a new…

Merry Christmas 2018

Another year has passed, and I’m still celebrating the holidays absent of the love of my life. One day soon this will no longer be an issue. Until that day comes, when I will wake every day to love and serve in His presence, I want him to know that words cannot express my love…

Patience

That’s right dear reader; radio silence is over. My beloved Master has finally broken radio silence. I awoke this morning to several missed calls and a text message asking me to text back. My joy has been resounding all day. Everyone has noticed the difference in me. So why the topic of patience? Patience has been…

Radio Silence and Fears

Lately, I’ve been consumed with my irrational fears. With the lack of communication with Master those old fears, that he’s leaving me, try and resurface. This is compounded by the fact that my sister has blocked me on Facebook. However, I remind myself that Master loves me. He promised never to leave me. I know…

Radio Silence and an Anniversary to Remember

It is once again that time when I celebrate a wondrous moment in my life. With Master still out of contact, this day is just a little harder to cope with alone. I want to be able to share this day with him. However, I know that he is holding me in his heart and…

Radio Silence and The Power of Communication

I find myself seeking solace in the company of my fellow subs. With Master out of reach, the opportunity to share and educate my fellow subs has presented itself without me seeking it. So with my heart and on the brink of losing control (and in some ways they already have). So now I must…

Radio Silence and Bad Dreams

It’s interesting the things your unconscious mind comes up with. Awake, I know that my Master loves me and will not abandon me. However, there must be a deep seated fear that we will not be the same when he gets home. The dream woke me up early and plagued me for the next hour…

Radio Silence and Happiness

If you may have noticed, I have entitled the posts that are written during Master’s absence and lack of communication with “Radio Silence.” This indicates that I have had no communication with Master. I hope to end the “Radio Silence” series until then I shall persevere. Lately, I have been giving a lot of thought…

Radio Silence and Survival Mode

I have come to the conclusion, that I must enter survival mode. This is not my favorite mode to live my life, but with Master gone and communication non-existent, it has become a necessity. Master will totally understand this need and not fault me for it. I haven’t gone this long without talking to him…

When You Can’t Cum, But Then You Do

There are people out there who, like me, are unable to cum no matter the stimulus. As a matter of fact, I didn’t even know what it felt like. I have to admit I was (and still am) envious of those who can. So imagine my surprise, when playing with a new toy, I thought…